We also got to see Tui’s 2 year old nephew who we don’t see too often which was nice. On the way home we stopped in on one of my good friends from university. She has two boys and is 6 months pregnant with their third baby. She has had a bit of a rough ride and has only just stopped throwing up and is able to eat a bit more. She has lost a lot of weight but had a bit in reserve so the midwife is still happy. She didn’t want to talk too much about how hard it had been for her, instead was quick to point out how lucky she was to be pregnant at all and she wishes so much that we could be pregnant along with her. She has always been one of our biggest supporters.
Tui went back to work again yesterday so now I am pretty much on my own for the rest of the summer holidays. I have spent a lot of time setting goals for myself this year and thinking about what I want/need. I shouldn’t be surprised but stress has really taken a toll on my happiness and my health. It’s not like I didn’t know it was happening but I guess i didn’t realise to what extent it was affecting me. I have been shocked by how tired I have been and how much sleep I have needed to catch up on. I guess it’s both emotional and physical exhaustion. I am feeling alot better now, but apprehensive about going back to school and having it all come flooding back. A testament to all this is that, if you remember, MR CMM wanted me to have pain free periods before he thought I would conceive. I laughed about this at the time because I thought it was impossible. So AF turns up yesterday and apart from some initial back ache, today I am 99% pain free which almost NEVER happens. I’m not actually on any herbs or anything for it right now, I can only put it down to relaxation. Same thing happened last Jan/Feb from my recollection. Ironic that both times this has happened I have been on a break. Number one goal for 2010 is work/life balance. Reduction in stress. Focus on health. So all I have to do is win lotto, then I don’t have to work, and I can stay home and relax …. no problem!
I have an appointment next Wednesday with our Fertility doctor, but in the capacity of his other job in the area of women’s health. He asked me to get my GP to refer me to him as a patient so he can look at the causes of my issues, mostly focussing on endometriosis which he is now convinced I am suffering from reasonably badly. He has already outlined to us that the likely course of action will be surgery. We have some idea of what will be involved and the effect on ttc etc etc but Tui will post about it after the appointment. I hope and pray this will ‘fix me’ and we will have our baby/babies ?!?!
I can’t tell you how happy I am for you gals out there getting the positives, you give us hope, most recently among others Poppy (yay!), Gayby Rabies and Chronicles of Conception. We want nothing more than for all of you out there on our blog roll to get your positives and be blessed with beautiful healthy babies!!